Do you ever?

Do you ever want to quit life and go back to school? Stop running around in circles and just read hundreds of books? Quit networking the world and just know your friends and family? Have a nice little house with a garden and a dog? These desires have been pressing in on me more and more lately. And it's funny because I know I am where I am supposed to be and I am so looking forward to this coming DTS. Maybe it is the difficulty I have had in adjusting to the newness of this place. I talked with Deb who is leading the DTS today. I told her how God was showing me that since I got here I have been gaurding myself so much and putting up walls everywhere. I don't even feel like myself anymore. It's like I am a false person, putting on a mask for these people. Sometimes I think my joy is all gone. Pray that I will find myself in Jesus again, that is what I want more than anything. I want to show the DTS students a person who is so genuinely satisfied in the Lord. That's me today.